Imperfect perfection

So the other day I allowed myself to totally become someone that I never wanted to be. I was offended beyond belief because someone posted very wrong and horrible things about me on facebook and I finally defended myself. I said some very harsh words out of hurt and anger. I can not believe that there are actually people in this world that are so vindictive. When is it wrong to finally stand up for yourself and have words come out because of so much bullying over many years? How many times can you just keep turning the other cheek? Jesus said to always turn the other cheek but because of my imperfections, the other day I just could not do this. It was the last straw with this person.

I find myself each day with people in my face it seems trying to tell me how to change and live my life. I have people that don't understand my constant struggle and fight in this life. There are those that are the select few who have walked on the path beside me and seen everything first hand. They have seen my fight, seen me lose almost every battle, and seen that instead of me being a drama queen ( which sometimes yes I am this) I in fact have circumstances that are completely out of my control. I have dealt with these situations to the best of my ability. A lot of times falling flat on my face and finding it hard to get back up again. But some how I slowly stand up shake the sand off my knees and keep on trying.

I have found that I don't have all the answers to my own problems, but I am handy in helping my friends. I have so much more postive to offer if someone would half way give me a chance. I have been given so many blessings and chances and at the same time I am being held back in so many ways because of people being judgemental. I am not perfect but yet sometimes I fcel that is what is expected of me. All I can be is this imperfect creation that was designed by God. I am who I am.... and lately I am very much content with the imperfect person that I am, because I know God loves me. If He looks down on you and loves you anyway... what else is there to concern yourself with?